The second picture says, “I love you so very much. -Mom. The blacked out part is something I wrote when I was missing her very bad.
My mom passed away in January of 2020 from tongue cancer (Squamous Cell Carcinoma.) She was a beautiful, resilient woman, and did everything she could to make sure her daughters were okay. I tried caring for her as she succumbed to her illness in the span of six months. I still feel like I failed her.
We went through so much, and it got to the point where my anxiety and PTSD symptoms were causing issues in our relationship. At times, she was emotional unavailable, and I couldn’t tell if she really heard me out when it came to how I was feeling.
After getting out of my domestic violence situation in October, I immediately remembered this card, and I couldn’t find it. Had searched every day. Today, my twin sister found it while cleaning out her art supplies.
Now, I understand that she just wanted me to be happy, and to know that no matter what, we’ll figure things out. We will be okay. We’d survived so much despite crazy situations we found ourselves in, and the loved ones around us not having our best interests in mind. To remember the good days.
This is the one piece from her that I will cherish forever. I’m going to find a frame for it and put it up in my room.
Mom, my twin and I will be okay. I’m going to be okay.
I love you, and thank you for everything.